Trade offs

He saw himself out which was eh until I remembered I’d get to wear my retainer that night!!


Hear from you anymore

I wonder if it makes him sad that he never hears from me anymore.

I think about the exes I never hear from anymore. How it doesn’t make me sad that I never hear from them anymore. How I never hope they’ll text me, never feel happy when they do, maybe a tickled curiosity but not joy, when they do, how I don’t hope that I hear from them tomorrow, how tapping into that thought just makes me feel nothing at all.

He doesn’t know where I am right now. What I did today. How I’m feeling. And he’s okay with it.



We did everything together, watched everything together, but somehow both didn’t mention to each other that we’d each found the time to binge a series called Love. Over dinner, his little brother’s girlfriend, who worked in the entertainment industry, asked if he was excited for the second season premiere; I guess he’d discussed it with her previously… he couldn’t even say the word to me.